Long overdue closure?

I finally got it. I talked to HB last week and told him everything. I won’t elaborate on that conversation, but I’ll just post the “after-texts”:

Me: HB, what I feel now is of course I still wanna be friends and I don’t wanna lose you. You mean a lot and I miss you. But even if you said let’s work it out, give it another try, it looks like you already let our friendship go. What strongly stuck to me was even if I’m one of your closest friends, you were willing to give that up for a clean slate in CP– you already did eh. And honestly I can’t believe it’s you talking– or maybe I didn’t know you that well after all. I’m hurt about that more than anything we cleared up the other day. I just wish you’d have valued our friendship more than what people will think or say– how much could that affect your work, and when was I ever the hardest person to talk to? I feel paranoid na you might think this is Rachelle happening all over again, but I think I deserve better treatment ah. I guess it’s hard to identify where we go from here. Kita mo naman na despite everything, when we talked last time it’s hard not to be friends and catch up. But I just wanted to let you know how I feel about what you said, I don’t wanna feel bitter someday na I wasn’t able to tell you. Yun lang. Likewise, tell me lang if you have things on your mind.

HB: Yncs, it took a long time lang for me to reply kasi I wanted to do it when I’m not swamped with work. Pero I already said how I feel and where I want to go after everything has happened. I don’t want to complicate but I’m sure that I want our old relationship to go back, cool and steady ba. I can’t count the days it has stopped but I can remember the stories/ problems I missed telling you. Anyway, hope you’re fine there and have a great weekend.

My thoughts on this are actually a bit scattered right now. For one, I didn’t get any kind of apology for anything. Second, as Paul said– “sounds like a playa to me!” We’ll see, I’ll just go with the flow. Hey I just came from Baguio I’m in a good mood right now! No bad vibes!