And so the story goes…

I want you to be that person…

… I will look forward to talking to at the end of the day to tell how my day went.

… I will share all my secrets with, with no worry in the world that you will judge me.

… I will run to to give me honest, rational advice on how I should be living my life.

… I will want to be with in discovering what the world has in store for me.

… I will want to spend all the time in the world with.

… I will want to be beside me as I live the life that I’ve wanted– and if things don’t work out the way I want them to.

… I will want to first break any news to– whether it be good or bad.

… To be there. 

And at the same time, I want to be the same person to you as I want you to be that person to me.

***

I like it when I lean on you. It makes me feel secure, and that you’re always there to help me take on anything. 

I like it when you wrap your arms around me. It makes me feel like you want me close to you.

I like it when you keep your hand on my back and rub it as if to reassure me that you’re there.

I like being with you. I like being close to you. I like having you in my life. Simple as that.

***

And if by any chance you’re reading this, well there goes. These were things I left unsaid the last time, but now it’s making my chest want to explode like hell. I’ll be waiting for… :)

Courage

I did something I’ve never done before. Yeah, call me a late bloomer, it’s actually a bit high school (in a good way)– but I did it anyway.

And now I couldn’t think straight, I’m anxious anxious anxious. I’ve got nothing to lose anyway, I think.

Jamiroquai

I just downloaded their High Times: The Singles album in reminiscence of my love for their music since high school, and god do I love them even more! 

1. 7 Days In Sunny June (Click on the video window to watch in YouTube)

2. Corner Of The Earth

3. Canned Heat

4. Love Foolosophy

5. Virtual Insanity– probably the most popular video! (Click on the video window to watch on YouTube!)

These are my fave songs among many many more (in fact, all on the record). One of the best albums, man!

The weekend

My horoscope for today (well, it’s not surprising that it’s very very true again): IF YOU WANT SOMETHING NOW, BETTER ACT NOW BEFORE SOMEONE SWOOPS IT UP.

Am I supposed to be alarmed??? Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!

(Don’t worry, this week… this week. I will make sure I get through, even if I have to spell it out.)

Anyway I spent the weekend with people from the office for our summer outing at Hof Gorei resort in Samal Island. The resort was nice, the room was only 4,800 for 10 people (there were 9 of us), but the beach sucked, MAJOR! You couldn’t see the water coz it was all weeds. I didn’t swim in the beach at all, and it was damn hot. Enjoy naman to spend time with my officemates, on Saturday evening we had this semi truth or dare but it was more of sharing about married, mature life (there’s only 3 of us singles in the group!!!). Well I honestly wish I was with the Manila outing with the people my age, from what I heard it was a riot!!! But not to say I didn’t have a good time– we did videoke, ate a lot, and time was not enough in the resort to relax!

When I got home at about 3:00 I cleaned my apartment to prepare for Mark’s and Cy’s stay here, and in the evening unexpectedly Jerome picked me up for dinner. He’s here in Davao, coming from Cagayan de Oro, and he drove all the way from Cebu. Anyway we had dinner at Jickong’s in Torres, then I took him to Fagioli. Was too tired to stay too long so I was home by 10:30 na. He’s gained so much weight, my gosh, more than double of when I met him back in… 2003?! Wow.

Anyhoo this week… this week. Exciting. Interesting. Lots of people at the office.

Those damn horoscopes.

Why are they almost always accurate???

Here’s mine for today: You finished something major. Now what? You always need a project, so think about your next goal.

Okay. So I just finished this 10-page paper today that the national sales manager & the country top asked me to do regarding conversion of break-bulk shipments of bananas to Japan into containers. This was the thing they asked me to do last week and it was due today, and I spent almost the whole week working on it, and even going so far as to meet up with clients to interview them and get this kind of information. Anyway, it was really good to be doing this long paper again, it’s 10 pages– it’s not too big a deal, back in college I was used to writing 60-page marketing plans, and a 300-page thesis! But anyway, was good to work on that kind of exploratory, business development stuff, rather than sitting on my desk all day and doing Sales stuff– giving rate quotations and attending to issues, well, which is not really the kind of work I want to do. Anyway offhand they gave me good comments for the paper, but I have to wait until next week to get further inputs. I’m proud of it! It’s the first paper I made at work…

And like I was saying, this is what I want to do. The study I made was only for Japan shipments, but there are so many other aspects to explore, such as shipments to other destinations, which I could actually focus on too. Just get this module past and my god, will I get my game on!!!

Anyway… I’m feeling good about it today. :) This week by the way was a bit tiring, was out for the past 2 days with clients, and now I’m just staying home to rest before our summer outing tomorrow! I just washed my undies and in a while I’m gonna pack up for tomorrow. Had this fit with someone from the other office earlier regarding him not joining the summer outing and wanting to get his budget, but that just passed by. And aside from looking forward to a weekend of rest, relaxation, bonding with my officemates, and a night of drinking and games… looking forward to the week ahead too! (I just hate the idea that module is a month from now!!! Huhuhuhu!)

And I’m singing, “It’s Friday, I’m in love!!! Haha!– Just downloaded the 50 First Dates OST

The weirdest thing.

I’ll have to keep this post in Tagalog, baka may makabasa! ;)

Ang saya ko ngayon. Nakita ko yung Group & Class List para sa aking (last!!!) Module 4 sa Copenhagen sa May. Kaklase ko ang aking matagal nang “pinupusuan” na taga-bansang N, ang bansa kung saan legal mag-marijuana…!!! Yesssssssssss! Kaklase ko na siya nung Module 1 and 2, tapos ngayon ka-grupo ko siya sa isang subject namin. Aieeeeeee!!!

Pero… may isa pang tao sa klase ko na… NAKO. Sabihin nalang natin na may nakaraan kami. Hahaha.

At ang isa pang tao na nasa klase ko… EEEHHH. Naging sila ni Person #2 nung Module 3 nila. Eeeeeek! Hindi ko pa kilala ‘tong babaeng ‘to pero gusto ko siya makita!

Buti nalang kasama ko yung mga ka-close ko na iba– Ash (US), Anna (Belgium), Zi (Singapore), Ippei (Japan), Pai (Thailand). Hindi ko nga lang kasama sina Meryl at Sushil pero ok lang. Masaya pa rin ito, INTERESTING kung anong mangyayari, lalo na pag nagkita kami ni Person #2!!! Haha!

Christopher Cross feat. Frances Ruffelle – And I Will

Ahhh, traumatic! Haha.

Because I’m home AGAIN on a Saturday night…

… and I’m tired from studying Logistics the whole day today (I actually just started at lunch and then slept for 2 hours after lunch)…

I saw this movie “Little Manhattan” (from 2005) on Star Movies today while I was having my Mr. Chips + Yakult breakfast (I know, eeeek, unhealthy! I haven’t done my grocery shopping yet!). Anyway it’s about two 11-year olds who find love in New York City. How young to find love, haha! The main character’s this guy called Gabe who falls in love with his kindergarten classmate and karate sparring partner Rosemary, and when he eventually musters the courage to tell her how he feels, it’s just too late since she’s off to summer camp. Cute movie, lots of nice quotes to get from it, such as this one:

Suddenly, I knew what I had to do. Love isn’t about ridiculous little words. Love is about grand gestures. Love is about airplanes pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbo-trons, giant words in sky writing. Love is about going that extra mile even if it hurts, letting it all hang out there. Love is about finding courage inside of you that you didn’t even know was there. 

Hahahaha. Here I am again. Aaaaanyway. Here’s what I did the rest of the week since we got our PBVPs last Wednesday:

On Thursday it was my officemate Tetet’s birthday and we had free lunch at the office– paella, sweet & sour pork, barbecue, and chicken. Yum! Made me miss Mom’s cooking even more, my Mom makes a mean paella! And I miss my salpicao!!! Huhuhu!

In the evening I went to SM with Rex to go shopping for toiletries while he blasted his bonus on shoes. I spent like Php 1200 man! POOF! I didn’t know grocery shopping could get so expensive, I mean I just bought shampoo, conditioner, body wash, and a couple of other non-food stuff. Yikes! Hopefully that stock lasts me for more than a month from now!

We then ate at Banok’s– I had the liempo barbecue, which was just like Php 40! I swear, the food here in Davao is absof*ckinglutely cheap but well worth the price for what you’re paying… or is my “taste” just deteriorating/ or am I settling? I hope not, I don’t think so! It actually even seems cheaper to eat out as long as it’s this cheap than to go through all the trouble of cooking at home…

And their buko halo-halo dessert was nice. It was only Php 50! No pic of it though, but it was served on a coconut… and I spilled it all over me when I tried to pour the milk out! Yikes! (2nd time such a mess happened, last time I was out with Rex in Shakey’s and the waiter spilled soup on me!)

On Friday me and my officemates were supposed to play badminton in the evening but we were too busy with work, so we just went to Chili Chill along Torres, had dinner and some beers, and went to Rizal for videoke at Gimik Barkada KTV– Php 100 lang per hour! The place was dirty and had no class at all but that was an OK price for videoke, the songs are the same anyway and are even newer than K1, which charges triple the price (but it’s a nice place naman). The not-singles left at 12 so it was again me and Rex who abused the mic until like 1:30! Haha! Was good to stretch my vocal chords man, I was singing like crazy.

Anyway so I’m home tonight and I don’t feel like going out anyway. I didn’t know I’d eventually get tired of it, or at least to want to take breaks from all the drinking and partying. Besides it’s only the same people I’m with and the same people I see every weekend so I can sacrifice having to stay home to miss out on it. And work was quite tiring too, was busy the whole week with this new Lean Quote Pricing in Sales, and next week will be even worse! My boss’s boss assigned me to do this study that’s due this Friday, and hell I don’t know where to start! It’s a good thing though since I’ll get to use my report-writing skills again, (I should be used to it from college!) and show them that I’m up for the challenge of delivering that report in a short span of time. I’m scared though, I will need to do a lot of things for this!!!

Good thing our Summer Outing’s next week already, yayyyy!!! We’re going to this resort in Samal Island called Hof Gorei for an overnight trip. Lots of things to look forward to for the next weeks including quite a lot of visitors & trainees at the office from MCC (our sister company), and then the next week (and weekend), Cy for some systems training and hanging out over the weekend, maybe with Mark too for another systems training the day before. I’ll be happy again :) And that week for sure, skipping Urban Club on a Saturday night is NOT an option! ;)

I love this day!!!

I feel so so so gooooood today! Good vibes man!

First off, there wasn’t too much to do so I was able to catch up a bit on the lagging work. Then in the morning I had a good coaching session with my boss, about how I’ve been performing at work lately, what I wanna do in the next months, and most especially feedback about me… which I really wanted to hear. Can I just say I looooove my boss! :) First of all, she believes in me, trusts me to undertake things, and acknowledges me for a job well done, to say the least. She said today she was gonna make me GAP, and though it’s a bit far-fetched for now, it’s unfair on my part to NOT believe I can do it when everyone else does right? And today I have newfound inspiration, both from my boss and my colleagues at work (and of course our HR manager Martin– since before), to take on the challenge to be GAP this year. Well it has been a record that all batches for the past years have had at least 1 GAP, and this year it’s only me, so guess who right?! I really will work hard to ace my exams and do well in my job so I will not let everyone (and myself) down and be the only MISE this year to graduate… and as a GAP, which is even more superb!!! I have newfound inspiration!!!

Next thing, I feel so good about being the process owner in Davao for this new pricing process we’re undertaking as Sales people. My boss isn’t much of a systems person so she assigned me to take on the task and so far I’m proud of how I’m doing. I’ve made myself familiar with the process, am asking the right questions (and was acknowledged for that), and am on top of things here in Davao! I love it, I’m so glad that my boss trusted that I can take on it… and I’m also realizing that it isn’t too hard as I thought after all!

Things, “things” are also falling into place. Great!!! My plans are like, going the way I want them to! And things are just getting better…

… And by the way, did I mention that I’m about 30+k richer today (but only until next week…)?! I just received my performance-based variable pay which is supposed to be 1.5 of my current salary… I mean my performance wasn’t too stellar in my last rotation (but that’s comparing to the highest expectations of me being a MISE) but it’s all good! I’ll be using the cash for my plane ticket to Greece after Module and the money will go POOF! by next week, but hey! You don’t get this much in one go!

Ah basta, I feel good today. Me and my officemates went drinking tonight (just a little bit, though), and it was my boss’s libre! Heehee! Didn’t have to pay anything. Ah, I just love today!

GAP GAP GAP GAP GAP!!!

Missing home

It was my sister’s birthday today and this was the first time I wasn’t home to celebrate it :(

She had a mean Martha’s Cakes cake! I loved that! My mom said she left me some though, for when I come back in May, she’ll put it in the freezer! Haha! Anyway my family sent me these pics today of Kelly’s birthday cake blowing at home:

I miss them terribly! And look at my brother Toby, with his bandaged face! Apparently he fell and had to have that part of his face stitched. Ouch!

***

I never really felt that I was far away from home than this long weekend. I went out with Bong and JM on Friday night and we headed home early though. We went to this place called Eagles in Marco Polo Hotel, but it was more of a bar for older people I think. On Saturday I stayed home all day, did a bit of studying, then went out with Rex in the evening to Nautica (along Torres) then Urban Club as usual. I wasn’t feeling very well to start with, I ate 4 eggs– pork & beans + 2 scrambled eggs for brunch, then luncheon meat + 2 scrambled eggs for dinner! I felt like all the cholesterol was in my body and my chest felt so heavy. Then went we went out I only had a cosmo and a beer, but the next day I was feeling so sick with stomach pains and a pounding headache… anyway I just stayed home (Rex stayed here until today) until today and we just abused the wifi! Haha. I did a bit of studying. Feeling pretty ok now– I had more decent meals than I usually do eat when Rex was here. :)

Anyway I miss home so much. I miss my Mom’s warm, home-cooked meals, I’m sick and tired of all the crap food I’m eating here! I swear next time I go grocery shopping I’ll lose the canned goods and the eggs!!!